You are all so lovely – I can’t start with anything else! Being able to protect your energy is easy with support from wonderful people around! When someone is feeling low they feel like a burden, like they are a total bore. But when I tentatively put it out there that I was feeling down, I had so many people give me virtual hugs, pep talks, empathise with me and send their love. So thank you all – I’m feeling much better these days which is good news!
So, looking at the title of this month’s blog, you may guess where I am going! Now I have some balance back in my life and am feeling a little more stable (!!) I really want to hold onto it! I learned a lot about all the ways I was giving my last little scrap of energy away in the hope I would appear to be ‘okay’. Showing up to those events, being sociable, following through with plans with friends and family, making sure I did what I had always done.
Something had to give. I had to do something different, or nothing would change. So I did – I got creative again. As a child I was always drawing and making things. I had a huge ottoman in my bedroom that I stashed cardboard tubes, boxes and paper scraps in. Crepe paper, beads and buttons, wool and pipe cleaners, glue and tapes. I would spend hours rearranging and auditing what I had in there (far more of this than actual making sometimes!) I would make robots, pen pots, creatures of all types, picture frames, beds for my teddies and dolls – anything and everything I could come up with. When I wasn’t making I was drawing – cartoon characters (along with names!) was a particular favourite. As I grew older I drew hands a lot – my lovely Dad would sit for hours with his hand on the table in a fist, pointing an index finger, palm laid out flat, and any other position I thought would make a good study. I think I also went through a foot phase…….
I then continued on with art and craft, pastel painting when the boys were just starting school was a wonderful distraction from missing them. I then moved onto needle felting, crochet, origami, sewing, dabbled but never excelled in calligraphy, pottery and wirework.
What a joy it was to come back to some mindful crafting. Making the paper flowers you see above was such a joyous few hours, I didn’t want it to end! I bought a kit and have made more since. The cutting, shaping and positioning of the petals was almost meditative, I loved it. The whole group of crafters all started with the same materials and templates and yet all made such unique flowers. How incredible is that? If you want to have a go and are Norfolk or Suffolk based, you simply must check out the wonderful Meg at Floragami (@floragami.paperflower on Instagram)
How do I carry this forward in my life? I’m still working that out – I just know that I must! I’m getting back into my business again after my enforced break, and I am striving to get back to the creative side and make it fun again. Creating was what brought Bergamot and Flow to life and I let myself get bogged down in the details of social media, markets, making money and meticulously recording every aspect of my business on spreadsheets.
Going forward I aim to make it fun again – to keep reminding myself why it started, get back to using my own products and remembering how good they make me feel, let myself be inspired and be creative again. I aim to protect the energy I have regained and keep nurturing it, feeding it with the good stuff so it grows!
This is the feeling (and the face, weirdly!) I want to get back to seeing more often. I want my life and my business to be fun again – for me and my customers! I don’t know what that means just yet but I hope it will naturally evolve over time. Maybe I will incorporate crafting somehow, maybe more yoga (well known to be my happy place!) or new products that are just that bit different, more happy and uplifting focussed rather than relaxing – any and all suggestions welcomed!
Wellness brands can often be calm, quiet and serene which is perfectly fabulous, we all need a bit of that sometimes. But I need to tap into joy and laughter and creativity again as I need it.
Who is with me?
See you next month friends – it’s another huge wellness blog with lots of wonderful contributors!
Love and light always,